Protected: This is Me Swallowing My Pride
It kinda hurts when…
It seems like the people you envisioned always being with you begin to slowly drift away. The only person you thought you knew inside and out, apparently has something deeper inside that they’re keeping hidden away from you, but not from somebody else. All this time you had this notion built up in your mind that what you feel about them is the same as what they feel about you, but apparently there’s a discrepancy there. It kinda sucks to be the last one to know the lock when the door has changed.
On another, perhaps less selfish note, what hurts even more is seeing other girls beat themselves up over body image. I guess it’s a topic that hits close to home with me, because I know the malicious impact it can have on your life. Beauty isn’t measured in dress or bra sizes, but in heart size. I’ve seen so many girls with the biggest hearts beat themselves up over fitting into size 00 jeans. It’s really not worth it, take it from someone who’s been there.
When
is it worth taking a risk?
Bow Chicka Wow Wow
I’m just in a good mood that I finally ran a race that I’m satisfied with 
Sure I was .02.38 seconds away from breaking 6….but this is definitely how I’d like to start off my season. I’m sick of mediocre performances and walking off the track feeling like I didn’t leave it all on the track. Today I left all I had in me…today. But tomorrow’s another day. Another race.
Valentine’s Day
Every year, I overlook Valentine’s Day simply because over the years it has adapted the connotation that it can only be celebrated between couples. Instead of ignoring this day once again, I’ve decided to pay tribute to some of the people that I love so much, they deserve some recognition.
Mamma- As of late, we’ve fought a lot over such trivial things. I feel so guilty after everything you’ve done for me, you definitely don’t deserve any of this. Each time I see you suffer, I make a vow to myself that I will not bring you the same pain under any circumstances. You’re such a strong woman, and I admire that incredibly. I want to thank you for not giving into the family pressures, because you knew what would have been better for me-you knew how to help me. Unfortunately you still had to suffer the judgements of everyone, and you have no idea how much I wish it never happened, just so that you didn’t have to suffer from my pain. Thank you so much for everything Mamma, ti amo.
Davide-I still remember the first time we met last summer. My first impression was the sweet guy with the funny yellow hair, and I thought that would be it. Yet we saw each other again, the last night before I left, and from that moment I could tell you were unique. We began talking almost every day, and the anticipation to see you again kept growing and growing. You weren’t like every other friend I’ve ever had-you were spontaneous, funny, caring, and loving. You were counting down the days until we’d see each other again, and the moment I finally saw you again, I was the happiest girl in the world. You always set aside your pride, and make a decision that you know will benefit the most amount of people, even though sometimes you put your feelings last on your priority list. I look back at everything you did for me, and I am still incredulous that someone cares about me that much. I’ve never had a friend like you. All I want is for you to be happy, because you’re one of the kindest people that grace this earth, and you shouldn’t settle for anything. You deserve someone that can love you full-heartedly, because that’s what you’re capable of giving. Thank you so much Tenerino, for being one of the most important people that have walked into my life.
Morgan-Oh dear, where to begin. You’re the most special person in my life without a doubt. I’m probably the luckiest girl in the world to have a best friend like you. You have a heart of gold, something which is very hard to find lately. I think back on all the memories we’ve created, and I can’t help but have a smile on my face, because you’re the reason behind my smiles most of the time. I’ve never laughed as much as when I’m with you, and for that I am eternally grateful. People like you are very hard to come along, so I pray that you will be in my life forever, even when we’re 80 years old sitting in our wheelchairs reminiscing about the past while probably pinning each other down…;) I love you furry, thanks for everything.
Protected: Wimp
Sisterhood of the Traveling…
After a week of feeling really down and missing my vacation in Italy, today was just what I needed to feel better. I had been impatiently anticipating this weekend all throughout the week, with the notion that I would finally be able to see my best friend, and finally be able to let out every single detail of what I have experienced.
Although we see each other quite often, and good times never seem to be lacking when we do, there was something different about this encounter. A new vulnerability was brought about. I truly believe that once you’re able to cry in front of a person-no, when a person can tell you’re about to cry before you even do, then that person is a true friend. I count my blessings every day that I have been gifted with a truly remarkable best friend-something that is quite rare to find. It’s the first time I have a person who I can go to with absolutely everything, without the fear of her passing judgement. She’s taught me so many things lately, particularly that I need to stop caring what others think of me. Being unique is the greatest gift a person can be graced with, and if we’re lucky enough to have it, we sure as hell better embrace it. I love you Morgan, thank you for always being there for me no matter what.
